Today I did something I have never done before. I hiked up some rather steep hills in Edale, a small village in the Peak District just a 45 minute train ride out of Manchester City Centre. I spend a lot of my time job hunting, worrying, contemplating my quarter life crisis, and when the idea was pitched that we would go for a long Easter Monday walk, I somewhat hesitated. I was happy being in a bubble of internet, food and Manchester but I got up out of bed and got my arse into gear. Stop whinging and do something different.
The higher I got, the more exhausted I was but determined to get higher, to see more and to push myself to heights I wasn’t sure I was capable of. I scrambled down steep hillsides, and walked over waterfalls; for someone who could barely walk to the shops a few days ago, I had somehow mustered the strength to complete a difficult 6 hour hike in the blistering heat. The walk worked well as we had no idea how long we had to walk to get to the bottom as we had nothing to compare it to (or a map), and if I had known how difficult the terrain would get before we left, I may have stayed in bed. But I got through it and without sounding too dramatic, I SURVIVED.
[photos my own]
Not only did I enjoy the sense of completion, but the sense of serenity, calm, nothingness. I didn’t think of my looming job deadlines, I thought of where my feet were going. Take it one step at a time, you’re not going to die. You’ll be fine because you aren’t made of thin glass, you are sturdy and have been through worse than this.
Phones were only used for pictures and headspace only used for navigation. Please see photos above for real moments of Wow, my feet took me here.
Mediation has been on my mind for a few weeks and was anxious that as a chronic worrier I would never be someone that could switch off from daily life but after today, I believe my meditation can come from other sources, like the rolling hills just on my doorstep. I now know that I can truly separate parts of my life that I thought were controlling me, and enjoy being in a moment of pure beauty and remember it that way. Here’s to many more moments of nothingness.